An enlightening thought...sometimes Jesus just wants me to be alone, with him. I'm in the middle of my short time here in Germany visiting another mission intern who is also a dear friend to me. We went to an international church youth group Friday night. The pastor talked about the passage in Genesis where Jacob wrestles with God and doesn't give up until he receives the blessing. For his identity to be changed into the one that God has deemed for him. "If you wanna get blessed, you gotta fight. And when you fight, you're gonna get wounded." Hard times come but they build our faith, character, and remind us that we have a God who is greater than the troubles of this world. I've realized that even though I am enjoying my time in Prague it has been a very challenging 2 and 1/2 months for me. There have been many times where I felt swamped by the weight of not knowing where to turn to or what ministries to be involved in. There have been events or situations happening with friends & family that make me long to see them. To be there physically to walk with them. As I cry out to God for strength I realized that although I spend time alone, I'm not seeking him as much as I should or thought that I was. I'm not engaging in the fight that God has set out before me. We entered a time of worship. I felt the freedom to dance and sing praises to my Father! I was able to sing out God's name in Czech which was a heartfelt prayer for me. I felt the presence of God walking with me through Old Town Square, Letna Park, Mala Strana. Hand in hand we went.
I know that hard times will continue, that I will have to look back on this many times, that I'll stumble and fall. I'm human. But I also am the daughter of the true King. The King that looks on me with love and picks me up, dusts off my clothes, and says "it's ok. I love you. try again."
Sometimes Jesus just wants to be alone with us, so that we can know His voice...
